I'M VERY VERY SORRY FOR NOT WRITING ON MY BLOG FOR ALMOST 2 WEEKS.
well fret not, i'll begin writing my post again as soon as I'm not busy anymore.
so just wait alright! :D
whohoo! i'm going to genting later! i'm preety excited. i know i've been there before but it's different when you are going with you family cause you can just point out what you want to buy! mwhaha! but yea you know what i mean. so guys happy valentines day to all of you. and to all of you singles out there. you know who you are. i'm not available ! mwhahaS! sad news ? HAHAH!
ok i'm just so hyper right now. i'm going to start preparing so catch you some other time. good bye.
The reason why i couldn't be the best that i can possibly be is because, i lack "The ability to take care of myself FIRST before anyone else".
I have helped and advised a lot of people with their problems before. As if their problems was my responsibility and duty.
Than, awhile ago, i told myself, " what about you mark ? what have you done or help to make yourself a better person? you have your own problems too mark, so why do you have to prioritize others when you have your own problems to fix first? If you are capable to change or help them in their lives why can't you change or help yourself first before you help others? ".
Than i realized that i have already neglected myself. I couldn't reason my way out. Because everything was so true and real.
The facts was killing me, it was painful to hear. Bearable but very painful. I couldn't even inhale properly. It was very hard to swallow everything in one go. I feel so restless and guilty. I have to squeeze every ounce of energy in me just so i could carry on with what i was doing while i came to a realization.
I made an agreement with myself today.
" I will prioritize myself before others. "
but this does not mean that I'm going to be selfish to others. I'm going to help them when they need me. And if one of their problems happened to be one of my problems that i haven't solved yet, i will refuse to help them because i don't want to be a hypocrite. I don't want to tell people to do something that i don't do.
For example, i advised someone not to do something because it is bad. However, I'm doing what i told that person not to do.
So from now onwards, i want to see a change in me. I want to help myself to be a better me.
ok so here's the to be continue part....
So last sunday, i came home from QB QOOL BAR around 6am feeling really exhausted.
As much as i want to take a nap, i chooses not to because once i fall asleep, I'm never going to wake up.
Name 15 people randomly. Do not look at the questions
below before naming them. This is fun, try it.
ok since i'm going to name 15 names, i guess this 15 names are people from my church.
1) Abby
2) Genesis
3) Zipporah
4) Rafael
5) NJ
6) Jomar
7) Hadasha
8) Jacob
9) Faye
10) Raymond
11) Iwoks
12) Jonathan
13) Gozon
14) Toni
15) Reuel
–Now answer these questions–
1. Who is number 3’s crush?
>>> Erm i don't know.
2. What do you think of number 6?
>>> Funny, Weird and Full of Randomness as in super duper.
3. How old is number 1?
>>> I'm guessing she's 13
4. Is number 15 a rapist?
>>> OMG him a rapist haha! i don't know? i don't think so. if he is one, he might consider rape-ing number 14 :X
5. If you think of number 5, what’s the first thing that comes to mind?
>>> Him making love with his bass guitar :D hahha! oh man that sound so nasty!
6. Do you have plans with number 4?
>>> Oh hell NO! his a GUY! but he did told me that he might have plans with me * blinks* *GULP* :x
7. How about number 7?
>>> NUMBER 7? hmm. number 4 might have plans with her too. so it's kinda a love triangle. :X? i think? hahaha!
8. Does number 14 like anyone from your list?
>>> YES BEFORE! I DON'T KNOW ABOUT NOW THOUGH! MWHAHA!
9. Name three things you have in common with number 10?
>>> I'M NOISY WITH LOGIC , HIS JUST PLAIN RUBBISH NOISY, I GOT A PSP AND SO DOES HE. I DON'T REALLY KNOW OTHER THAN THAT.
10. Do you remember the first time you actually said “hi” to number 11?
>>> Yes, if i could remember she was wearing clothes :X duh ?! and she has this spongebob bag with her :D haha!
11. Have you ever been groupmates with number 13?
>>> yes this christmas celebration , we were in the same team.
12. Have you ever had a fight with number 8?
>>> Physically, no. vocally, yes :X actually, i don't know. is not actually A fight i guess. it's more of pissing one another haha!
13. Do you chat often with number 9?
>>> yea whenever she's online in Ym or Msn.
14. Are you and number 2 close friends?
>>> Yes to me she is a close friend of mine.
15. Is number 1 pretty?
>>> EWAN, I don't really know. she did say that she look like Sarah Geronimo :X hahahha!
16. What would you say if number 12 and 14 were dating?
>>> OMG I WOULD DIE LAUGHING! JONATHAN AND ATE TONI! HAHAHHAA! MAN THAT'S CRAZY. THAT'S SUICIDE !!!!! THAT'S JUST OUT OF THE WORLD! IT'S JUST WEIRD SEEING THEM TOGETHER!
17. What was your first impression of number 7?
>>> When i first met her, she doesn't really smile a lot, so i kinda have an impression of her being snobby. And i also taught she was malay. and than when i get to know her already. she was actually ok. but she's not or never ok with number 12 hhahha! And she smiles oftenly now. cause she just went through Smile Therapy :D
18. Would it be a shock to you if number 11 asked number 3 out?
>>> HELL YEA! CAUSE THEY ARE BOTH GIRLS! HAHA! UNLESS ONE OF THEM ..... (NO COMMENT) ... HAHA :D
19. Name one thing you admire about number 9?
>>> SHE'S NOISY = NOT BORING
20. What do you like most about number 7?
>>> Her Hidden Smile :D
21. Is number 14 sporty?
>>> Hell no! however, i do know that she's very sporty when she does her make-up !
22. Have you ever eaten out with
number 15?
>>> YEA all of us do from 1-15 :D
so when i was about to go to bed last saturday, Pei Yun IM me on MSN:
I just woke up awhile ago, and i taught i was going to sleep for a really long time because i haven't slept for almost 1 day and a half already. so when i woke up, i tried going back to sleep again but i just couldn't go back to sleep.
i want to tell you something that i remembered. It was a really long time already. I was still the type of guy who loves wearing long sleeves shirts and wear shoes that will never go well with the clothes that i wear to church. And our teacher who is so kind and generous would always treat us to Burger King and Arcade somewhere in peninsular plaza after Junior Praise Kids class. I don't really know where she is now, she was a really good teacher. We actually learned more while we were eating during our class. and if you guys remembered that particular period of time. than you'll probably know what I'm talking about. and if you don't know, than just read what i have to say.
I remember when jacob and i was rushing down using the really narrow escalator of peninsula hotel. And instead of running down we were actually jumping down so we would reach there faster. So when we reached the 1st floor, we went to the food court to eat. If I'm not wrong, i ordered Chicken Rice. And that was My Lovely and Glorious days with Chicken before i got allergic to it. UGH! so while both of us were eating, the Old Uncle beside me overheard us talking in tagalog
than the Old Uncle said," hey you guys are filipino ah?"
jacob and i ," yea? "
Old Uncle, " i know how to say i love you in tagalog "
" it's mahal kita right? "
Jacob and i. " yea correct !"
me " you know what's ' how are you' in tagalog? "
Old uncle, " no i don't "
me " i teach you lar "
Old uncle, *really excited* "okay lor"
me, " 'TAE ako' means how are you? " (which actually means i'm a shit ! hahaha!)
Old Uncle, " TAE AKO "
jacob and i were trying to hold our laughter because that man said it out loud. It's really funny.
haha! i wonder what will happen to him if he would to say hi to another filipino. I guess they would get shocked or just laugh hysterically. haha
Ellen: "Hey handsome"
Me: "smiles politely while receiving her kind compliment", in his brain," Jeez me handsome now? how could you not noticed that before? grrrrh. is there a difference between that mark and this mark. so i presumed that this mark is so much more handsome to you huh. so what about that mark. he looks like a junk to you? oh wait let me just tell you something. THAT MARK IS THIS MARK TOO. " than i finished off with a " fake smile again"
Ellen: hey you know, Mark really look a little bit like his dad
Mom: No he doesn't look like him at all
Ellen: So you're telling me he looks like you * with a "whatever i know I'm right" look on her face*
Mom: *quickly changes the topic* " hey look 1 min more before the train will arrive"And i overheard another conversation again in the train.
Ellen: "Hey you know mark looks like an American now"
My thoughts: *huh? really? i do? hmmm.....*
Ellen: "His cheeks is reddish in color and he got a good face structures"
My thoughts: * oh you mean my rashes? that's the main reason why my cheeks are red. I didn't know that having a red cheeks would make me an American. - the logic - , oh yeah and i really have good face structures. must be in our genes. All my cousins and uncle are good looking. well not really all. but almost all of us are."
Mom: well * smiles * and maybe thinking " haha well my son is handsome and your son will never be as handsome as him" * Evil grin laughter: MWHAAHAHA* ... KIDDDING "
Have you ever wondered if one day you woke up and someone told you that you won 50 Million Dollars? And i mean US DOLLARS. And you'll be thinking where the heck that loads of money came from. So you start slapping yourself or pinching yourself trying to see whether you're still dreaming. Than you realized that you're actually wide awake.

Hmm.. I was thinking of buying a private Jet, but on second thought, I don't think I'm that rich yet to purchase it. Maybe next time. sigh!

Next I'm going to buy a Luxurious house that offers Great views and Clean Fresh air. It must also come with a really Big function room to held all my FORMAL VIP PARTIES! That are only invited by ME of course! I want my house to be so beautiful that when people step foot in my house i want them to be amazed by the beauty of it. And I also want my house to be safe 24/7. so a security guard is a must-must! I also want my parents and my sister to live with me. I don't want to be living all alone with the maids and guards, that is so boring.
And the next thing that I'm going to do is, SHOPPING!!!!! Come to think of it, actually that should be the first thing I should do when I turned rich. haha! I'm going to shop till i drop with my friends! But I'm not really into those Gucci or Prada stuff or whatever rich clothing brand et cetera, cause i know my friends could totally not afford them haha! I know right? They are like freaking poor! I'm just going to buy all those stuff that looks good on me.
And since I'm Rich now, I should also be taking care of my Facial appearance. It's not nice when people see you and comment you for having wrinkles or whatever shit stuff on your face that makes you ugly. so a good dermatologist is a must for me. I might also be considering on doing Plastic Surgery. It is not as if i have no looks to begin with, I definetely have looks even before i became rich! I just want my features to be more enhanced.
And I AM SO GOING TO BUY BOTH OF THIS! I lOVE IT!And I'm going to give 10 million dollars to my Mom and Dad to plan and start our own family business.
I don't think i need a therapist. Do all rich people have therapist? Well if they do, i'm still not going to have one.
Oh yeah, I also want to travel around the world! I want to go places like Egypt, Venice, Barcelona, Korea , Canada, switzerland and more.
I also want to enjoy fine dining without worrying how much i should limit myself with the menu prices.
And now my parents can retire EARLY! whohooo!
hmmm. there is so much more money left. i still don't know what to do with it.
SIGH! if only all of this was true.
But whatever it is, i think i'm still happy with the way i'm living right now.
As somebody told me before, " An Education, Food to eat and a roof over your head" you are already considered blessed.

When i was a kid, my sister have this cassette tape which plays nursery rhyme songs. And she would purposely play it because she knows I'm like afraid of it and i will get really really scared. Especially, when it comes to the part when i hear eerie musical box playing and loud thundering sound. I would rush to my sister and jump over her lap. And I'll use her hands and my hands to cover my ears for double sound protection ha-ha! and both of my eyes are shut tightly. I don't even know why I'm scared of nursery rhymes since nursery rhymes is for children.
Than my sister will try to comfort me and she'll be like, no Mark don't be scared I'm here for you. and I'm like. uh-huh? if i could remember you're the one who played it? thank you so much for being there. haha! and once she stopped the music, she'll be like, see....no more! you don't need to be afraid now. you can open your eyes and stop covering your ears now. and once I'm back to normal she'll play it again. and laugh at me. and i will run to her again! haha! GRRHH!!
And SHIT! the worst part is the after-effect, I can't get myself to sleep because when i close my eyes, i'll start hearing , " IT'S A SMALL WORLD AFTER ALL, IT'S A SMALL WORLD AFTER, IT'S A SMALL WORLD AFTER. IT'S A SMALL SMALL WORLD ". UGH it's so ANNOYING!
And when i am sleeping on my sides, i could sharply hear heavy footsteps on my pillow? and it really freaked me out. and when i lift my head off the pillow, the sound disappeared. But when i place my head on the pillow again, i heard the heavy footsteps again. gosh, it's really creepy. i don't know where all the sound is coming from since i'm too young to even know what's this and that.
I also remember back in grade school, since my sister's school is right infront of my school and both of our school shared the same field, i was playing "tag" (also known as " CATCHING" in singapore) with my friends in the open soccer field, and than out of the blue moon i had my asthma attack.
the teachers from my sister's school rushed to me and since my sister was kinda popular back in her school, they knew who i was immediately. we'll they don't know me by name but they addressed me as, "Joyce's brother ".
so anyway, the teacher was like, " go call joyce quickly quickly!" to the student.
after my school and my sister's school negotiated what to do with me, they excused my sister from her classes that day and the principle drove me to the nearest clinic with my sister and than called up my parent.
my sister was like, MARK are you okay? . and i'm like panting, " Ouch, very painful, ugh...". and once everything was done in the clinic, my sister and i went back home with my mom. luckly it wasn't very serious. so Thank God.
- Few more days more to go and bye bye january and say hello to february and this means that if i want to stay in singapore for another month i've got to go to ICA again to get another extension.
- My sister went to a 5 days business trip in KL. Before she left, she gave me 20 dollars. whohoo! thanks ate.
- I did managed to clean up my room on friday, however, on saturday it was very very messy again. And this was not my fault because i'm not the one who made that mess. It was the kids fault. mwhahahas! blame the kids. BURN!!! ok kidding....
- I've been playing maple story and audition again! and i'm ADDICTED! oh shit! haha!
- My allergy reaction flared up again, and i don't even know what caused it. GRRH!
- It's chinese new year! and i don't know what to do? maybe peel some oranges? bleh! i don't even like orange, except ready-made orange juice with pulp..hmm..yummm!. hehe!
- My neck is so iittcchhyy!!!! been scratching it like for-ever!!!!
- whohooo! i grew taller. you know by how much? well i grew 0.000000001 mm tall whohohoo! (X_X)'''...and you guys are probably thinking what instrument i used to measure my height right? hahaha! corny me!
I'm so sorry guys!!! i know you have been waiting for my blog updates. well cause i was playing maple story! and yes! i'm so ashamed and dissapointed of myself playing that game again! because i've stopped playing that game for more than a year already. and now i'm addicted to that game again! UGH! well i'm going to control myself soon...hhaha! well since i haven't been blogging a lot, i will post a lot of stuff on my blog starting tomorrow alright! so just stay tune guys! and i'm really sorry again!

there was a picture i took and posted in flickr a long time ago. and than while i was checking my friends in msn. i happened to see that their display picture was actually one of the pictures that i took before. i am so honoured that there are actually people using the pictures that i took as their DP haha!. how i know it is mine? well there's a signature MARK on the bottom left of the picture , which i think the dp has it too! haha cool right! i'm so honoured haha!
click the picture to enlarge it! so you can see the proof haha!
