I'M VERY VERY SORRY FOR NOT WRITING ON MY BLOG FOR ALMOST 2 WEEKS.

well fret not, i'll begin writing my post again as soon as I'm not busy anymore.
so just wait alright! :D

whohoo! i'm going to genting later! i'm preety excited. i know i've been there before but it's different when you are going with you family cause you can just point out what you want to buy! mwhaha! but yea you know what i mean. so guys happy valentines day to all of you. and to all of you singles out there. you know who you are. i'm not available ! mwhahaS! sad news ? HAHAH!


ok i'm just so hyper right now. i'm going to start preparing so catch you some other time. good bye.

The reason why i couldn't be the best that i can possibly be is because, i lack "The ability to take care of myself FIRST before anyone else".

I have helped and advised a lot of people with their problems before. As if their problems was my responsibility and duty.

Than, awhile ago, i told myself, " what about you mark ? what have you done or help to make yourself a better person? you have your own problems too mark, so why do you have to prioritize others when you have your own problems to fix first? If you are capable to change or help them in their lives why can't you change or help yourself first before you help others? ".

Than i realized that i have already neglected myself. I couldn't reason my way out. Because everything was so true and real.

The facts was killing me, it was painful to hear. Bearable but very painful. I couldn't even inhale properly. It was very hard to swallow everything in one go. I feel so restless and guilty. I have to squeeze every ounce of energy in me just so i could carry on with what i was doing while i came to a realization.

I made an agreement with myself today.

" I will prioritize myself before others. "

but this does not mean that I'm going to be selfish to others. I'm going to help them when they need me. And if one of their problems happened to be one of my problems that i haven't solved yet, i will refuse to help them because i don't want to be a hypocrite. I don't want to tell people to do something that i don't do.

For example, i advised someone not to do something because it is bad. However, I'm doing what i told that person not to do.

So from now onwards, i want to see a change in me. I want to help myself to be a better me.

ok so here's the to be continue part....

So last sunday, i came home from QB QOOL BAR around 6am feeling really exhausted.

As much as i want to take a nap, i chooses not to because once i fall asleep, I'm never going to wake up.

Name 15 people randomly. Do not look at the questions
below before naming them. This is fun, try it.

ok since i'm going to name 15 names, i guess this 15 names are people from my church.
1) Abby
2) Genesis
3) Zipporah
4) Rafael
5) NJ
6) Jomar
7) Hadasha
8) Jacob
9) Faye
10) Raymond
11) Iwoks
12) Jonathan
13) Gozon
14) Toni
15) Reuel

–Now answer these questions–


1. Who is number 3’s crush?
>>> Erm i don't know.

2. What do you think of number 6?
>>> Funny, Weird and Full of Randomness as in super duper.

3. How old is number 1?
>>> I'm guessing she's 13

4. Is number 15 a rapist?
>>> OMG him a rapist haha! i don't know? i don't think so. if he is one, he might consider rape-ing number 14 :X

5. If you think of number 5, what’s the first thing that comes to mind?
>>> Him making love with his bass guitar :D hahha! oh man that sound so nasty!

6. Do you have plans with number 4?
>>> Oh hell NO! his a GUY! but he did told me that he might have plans with me * blinks* *GULP* :x

7. How about number 7?
>>> NUMBER 7? hmm. number 4 might have plans with her too. so it's kinda a love triangle. :X? i think? hahaha!

8. Does number 14 like anyone from your list?
>>> YES BEFORE! I DON'T KNOW ABOUT NOW THOUGH! MWHAHA!

9. Name three things you have in common with number 10?
>>> I'M NOISY WITH LOGIC , HIS JUST PLAIN RUBBISH NOISY, I GOT A PSP AND SO DOES HE. I DON'T REALLY KNOW OTHER THAN THAT.

10. Do you remember the first time you actually said “hi” to number 11?
>>> Yes, if i could remember she was wearing clothes :X duh ?! and she has this spongebob bag with her :D haha!

11. Have you ever been groupmates with number 13?
>>> yes this christmas celebration , we were in the same team.

12. Have you ever had a fight with number 8?
>>> Physically, no. vocally, yes :X actually, i don't know. is not actually A fight i guess. it's more of pissing one another haha!

13. Do you chat often with number 9?
>>> yea whenever she's online in Ym or Msn.

14. Are you and number 2 close friends?
>>> Yes to me she is a close friend of mine.

15. Is number 1 pretty?
>>> EWAN, I don't really know. she did say that she look like Sarah Geronimo :X hahahha!

16. What would you say if number 12 and 14 were dating?
>>> OMG I WOULD DIE LAUGHING! JONATHAN AND ATE TONI! HAHAHHAA! MAN THAT'S CRAZY. THAT'S SUICIDE !!!!! THAT'S JUST OUT OF THE WORLD! IT'S JUST WEIRD SEEING THEM TOGETHER!

17. What was your first impression of number 7?
>>> When i first met her, she doesn't really smile a lot, so i kinda have an impression of her being snobby. And i also taught she was malay. and than when i get to know her already. she was actually ok. but she's not or never ok with number 12 hhahha! And she smiles oftenly now. cause she just went through Smile Therapy :D

18. Would it be a shock to you if number 11 asked number 3 out?
>>> HELL YEA! CAUSE THEY ARE BOTH GIRLS! HAHA! UNLESS ONE OF THEM ..... (NO COMMENT) ... HAHA :D

19. Name one thing you admire about number 9?
>>> SHE'S NOISY = NOT BORING

20. What do you like most about number 7?
>>> Her Hidden Smile :D

21. Is number 14 sporty?
>>> Hell no! however, i do know that she's very sporty when she does her make-up !

22. Have you ever eaten out with
number 15?
>>> YEA all of us do from 1-15 :D

so when i was about to go to bed last saturday, Pei Yun IM me on MSN:

 

 

I just woke up awhile ago, and i taught i was going to sleep for a really long time because i haven't slept for almost 1 day and a half already. so when i woke up, i tried going back to sleep again but i just couldn't go back to sleep.

i want to tell you something that i remembered. It was a really long time already. I was still the type of guy who loves wearing long sleeves shirts and wear shoes that will never go well with the clothes that i wear to church. And our teacher who is so kind and generous would always treat us to Burger King and Arcade somewhere in peninsular plaza after Junior Praise Kids class. I don't really know where she is now, she was a really good teacher. We actually learned more while we were eating during our class. and if you guys remembered that particular period of time. than you'll probably know what I'm talking about. and if you don't know, than just read what i have to say.

I remember when jacob and i was rushing down using the really narrow escalator of peninsula hotel. And instead of running down we were actually jumping down so we would reach there faster. So when we reached the 1st floor, we went to the food court to eat. If I'm not wrong, i ordered Chicken Rice. And that was My Lovely and Glorious days with Chicken before i got allergic to it. UGH! so while both of us were eating, the Old Uncle beside me overheard us talking in tagalog

than the Old Uncle said," hey you guys are filipino ah?"

jacob and i ," yea? "

Old Uncle, " i know how to say i love you in tagalog "
" it's mahal kita right? "

Jacob and i. " yea correct !"

me " you know what's ' how are you' in tagalog? "

Old uncle, " no i don't "

me " i teach you lar "

Old uncle, *really excited* "okay lor"

me, " 'TAE ako' means how are you? " (which actually means i'm a shit ! hahaha!)

Old Uncle, " TAE AKO "

jacob and i were trying to hold our laughter because that man said it out loud. It's really funny.

haha! i wonder what will happen to him if he would to say hi to another filipino. I guess they would get shocked or just laugh hysterically. haha